sorry.

i let my frustration reigned today.
each time the hurtful words left my lips,
i tried putting myself in your shoes...
i thought perhaps... they will spur you on instead... unleash all that fury and so we ll put all our anger into the water
but at the end of it all, i realised what an asshole i was.

to say that those words were to motivate and encourage was a lie.
i just couldn t stand the thought of being behind.
i didn t like people to wait for us...
and because of this fear, i wanted to go faster
i became agitated when we weren t going as fast we potentially could
and desperation set in.
my emotions got the better of me... and i just snapped.
in the end, i didn t stop myself from spatting all the mean things i said.

. why am i always forcing my ideals on the people around me?
why can t i stay cool and composed in face of pressure and fear?
what the hell am i doing?

freak, you re such a disappointment.


yes, we are pushing but can we be really sure we ve pushed hard enough?
why should we even set limits on ourselves?