FEMME

live &forget.

the greatest thing
you ll ever learn
is just to love
and be loved
in return

The Moulin Rouge.

This Story Is About Truth
This Story Is About Beauty
This Story Is About Freedom
Above All Things This Story Is About Love
Truth - Beauty - Freedom - Love

HISTORY
January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006

NOISE
When will I begin to live again?
One day I'll fly away... leave all this to yesterday.
Why live life from dream to dream,
and dread the day when dreaming ends.

-nicole kidman in moulin rouge

CREDITS
she made this skin and she wants you to use it, her name is jessica or jessicaa and she wants you to leave the credits here! pictures are take from here. hopefully, you will like this skin and is able to appreciate it:D



Thursday, January 26, 2006 Y 0

grrrrrrr friendster is so screwed up x_X
i carn upload a photo without refreshing one zillion times
even blogger is pissin me off by being so laggy
ughhh what the toooooot*

anyways i was sick for the past 2 days (:
lols it rockks totallyy being sick.
watched 3 episodes of my fav e zuo ju zhi wen after like 29038290842372784 years?!
yeppsss sweeet show . the show's ending soon SIGHHHHH
zheng yuan chang is so cute (:

lalalass i really have no idea why im here when im supposed to be sleepin.
i should rest well, reallyy.
hahs im just so exciteddd for tml !
geezz dont ask me why.
maybe cos im back to school tml and yeahh, i know.. thats such a dumb reason.
i miss nj's roti prata and pillows
lols i'll be seein lotsa fav ppl tml (:(:
school ends early and we are goin back to rv!
WHEEEEEE! :DDDDDDD

yuppssss anyway, im gaining lots of calories lately.
been munchin on all the CNY goodies at home!
blehss FLOSS ROLLS especiallyy.
hahahass you know those crispy rolls with floss inside?
and when you bite them, you can hear the CRANK CRANK soundd cos they are SO crispy?
yupps they are like superr deliciouss lah.
yeahh i know... i shouldnt be eating all these junk food when im so sick.
whatever . there's no other food in my house already
its not my fault i carn find alternatives =PpPp
lols i feeel fat already

someone shoot me please.
i heard they are takin height and weight for nxt week pe
OH MY

11:48 PM lets leave this to chance

Tuesday, January 24, 2006 Y 0

strange enough, im feelin kinda moody despite the movie
geisha was rather good . the ending was sweet (:
lessons started officially today.
the timetable is like x_X
i have so little free periodss blehss
yeahh i think i spaced out almost every lesson -.-
gp was like Zzzz goodniteyyy
lucky for us, the pw period was free since its only the 1st 3mths.
went to coronation/ prince's for lunch with og27.
then went for chem pract.
lolss peck yan said the teacher looks cute while i on the other hand feels as though he just stepped out from some sitcom
went the student lounge to lagggggggg

hahahahx yesterday was super funn lah.
laggedd /crapped in school till like 4-5+ before we met up with yl.
headed to serene centre for island creamery (:
the ice cream was DELICIOUS (:(:
did some homeworkk and we went to adam rd for dinner
lolss gossipped like madd lah (: and some confessionsss worr
hahahahaa my superr happy day s.

悲伤喜悦回忆不断重演
no past . no nothing .
no reminiscence .
then why are you still living in your shadowss

10:19 PM lets leave this to chance

Monday, January 23, 2006 Y 0

im back from oac camp!
and im like super sick :(
my muscles are sore and my throat hurts like hell x_X
yuppsss but the camp was still fun
my group was XYLONE! great bunch of people (:
played some ice breaker games at the beginning
then we had outdoor cooking.
O-U-T-D-O-O-R : makin use of REAL leaves and twigs to set up a fire -.-
lols then some of us talked till like 2am?
woke up at 4am and realised i left 2 graphic calculators at the oasis
BLEHS the calculators cost 169 bucks each Zzzz
what a nightmaree =/
luckily they werent stolen . what a close shave

had pt on sat (:
then it was orienteerin.
lols the game was super gross lahh.
had to pass a banana to one another to the 100m mark using our mouths (! we could not bite the bananas) yupps the bananas were super soggy and disgustingg at the end of the game =/
then we had to pass toothpaste back to the starting line using our nose Zzzz
LOLs realised nj ppl are kinda sadistic
we travelled from nj to adams rd to macritchie and finally to bukit timah hill which was the last stop
hahas super tiring and super fun (:(:
xylone came in 2nd ! :DDDD
yupps the camp ended with a 'cold' campfire. lols and we break camp at 10pm?

this week was super entertaining (:
get to know a senior who is ex-rv and ex-nj and super crappy
lols we had this bridge maddnessss lah .
played 3/4 hours of bridge and other card games on tuesday =/
hahah it was crazyy . too bad we wont be seein him soon cos he booked in yest.
hahahaha SHAN, SO I GUESS ITS OVER? =PpPp

i carn go to the maldives cip =(
my parents are super against it, saying that its so dangerous and stuff
yuppps im quite disappointed
haiz maldives is like voted one of the world's best beaches lahh and its always featured on the national geographic .
oh wells.

yuppss had 2d outin today.
lols we lagged and lagged and lagged
took neos and ate pasta for dinner (:
nothing much actually but i just kept laffin
shuzhen said i looked drunk =/
lols i was very dizzy as though my head was spinninnn like madddd
lalalas i think we are meetin up soon to go to lee lao shi house for CNY (:
im so thrilled (:



HEY YOU! best friends till the very end (:(:(:

12:09 AM lets leave this to chance

Sunday, January 15, 2006 Y 0

[edited]:
i read your blog. yupps im angry not cos you went out with your class last night.
but because you dont bother to hang out with us anymore. maybe im oversensitive but yupps we dont even talk as much as before. we dont see each other though we are in the same school. its as though you forget bout us already and thats so hurting. im angry cos im afraid i'll lose you, thats all :(


oh yeahh babyy, 27 is HOTHOTHOT!
the whole nj was shakin their bonbons and groovin it at the dance party fri night :DDDD
yuppsss it was superHIGH!
everywhere you turned, you can see happy people dancin; some were on tabletops (:(:
it feels as though we were clubbin lolss
thought the dance party was a fabulous end to this whole 12day orientation
staliA estrellas is soOVER :(

ermmm let me seee
on wed we had WAR GAME I (:(:
all the houses formed an alliance against antaios and lynova .
poured water on whoever i see. lolx too bad i didnt get a chance to use the waterbombs
hahss got myself super wet and muddy
and i smelled like cow dung after everythin x_X
the aftermath of all that devastation:
lols the field supposedly green looked as though one million cows shited on it.
hahahas the damage was pretty bad .
cca open house was liddat lahh.
nothin muchh. just sightseein lolx
many rvians from ac crashed nj (:
played bball with the usual peeps and np ppl after school.
lols missed them soooo much mannn :DDDD
joined og27 at kap to celebrate kelvin's 18th birthday (:
hahahahs and again, we had super funny daress .
sam had to share fries with the antaios house captain =PpPp
LALALALALALA superFUN!

thurs . we had station games
lols average lahh . all i can remember was spinnin ard poles for 20 times
WTH i kept falling down and my butt hurts like hell lolx
was super dizzy the whole time >.<
went kap with og27 again lols
this time ard, we played this dumb game that goes ti-titi-ti-ti TI-TI .
then we had to tap on each others' fingers. lols super cute sia
laffed till my stomach hurts ^_^

fri.
WAR GAME II
it was us againts the OGLs
mwahahahahas
i was at the frontline! wheeeeeee! (:(:
super fun man. kept throwing water bombs at them
yuppss was hit a couple of timesss OUCHHHHH!
lalalasss WET WET WET!
my class ordered pizza for dinner /dance party (:
06s19 is kinda quiet bahx
dont exactly hate the class but yuppsss abit too dull for my liking.
lols hope things improve (:
og27 is reallyyyy super duperrr funn .
lolss you guys really rocked my lifee like TOTALLY.
was intent on leavin nj after3mths initially
\BUT yuppsss you guys made so much a difference i decided not to :DDDD
hahs if i can stay, i probably just change my combi and if im lucky enough, i'll be in the same class as one of you guys (:
lolss and yuppsss og27 , u guys danced WELL! (:
sooo sexyyy and sooooo coolll
27 WHOOOOOSH!

sat. kayaking course with og27! (:
hahahas it was interestin and i had fun
paired with xingqun for T2 (:
think we did a great job though we were abit slow. hehehe
i must be a lousy partner =p
yuppss think im considerin canoe as cca.
(: managed to row a k1 by myself (:
hohohos that really rockss man
i must be real luckyy that day (:
will be going for the training on mon and yuppss see how things go bah

rv 50th anniversary was ermmmm lols RV.
the performances were... yupps dance was GREAT (:(:
hahaha why didnt i join dance when i was in sec1?
LOL MAYBE I AM A NATURAL YOU KNOW...
kayyy kiddinn =p
it feels good to see all the rv peeps again (:
went clementi mac to eat supper.

thats all folkss. till then :DDD
GLORY GLORY GLORY NJ!


stan karla joanne me (:


06s19!


us during station games


I LOVE OG27! ^_^


we are H O T!

6:14 PM lets leave this to chance

Tuesday, January 10, 2006 Y 0

its strange how sometimes people change,
how they drift away from you,
as though overnight they don't seem to know you anymore.

and one day you'll wake up and find yourself back to square one,
having to start from scratch all over again.
memories don't stay. they just fade away with time.
i used to think that all the good things in my life , be it people or whatever, will last forever;
since its pretty dumb not to want to maintain the happiness that comes with it.
. . . then i realised forever is an overstatement.
there's no truth in it .

love comes to an end eventually. even best friends don't keep in touch forever . needless to say, happy memories .
the only people that stand by you rain or shine is your family, i guess.

perhaps im being bitter bout life.
but today im feeling unusually reflective

10:24 PM lets leave this to chance


You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.
How Boyish or Girlish Are You?


so now im gay -.-
lols perhapss im really better off being gay
so i wont be in such a mess now Zzz

life is good.
i love life
she loves me
og outings were as usual superb.
class was a little dull Zzzz
im considerin changing my combi if such crap continues on -.-
really missin og27 :(
on a brighter note, we are havin a secret meetin tml!
and another secret breakfast on thurs!
HUSHH HUSHHHHH! its really secret kayy (:(:
yupps and we are goin kayakin this sat and also celebratin pravin's 17th birthday!
LALALALAA
kap yest was super funn .
had an emergency getaway cos rumours of sharon phua comin were spreadin like wildfire x_X
lols escaped to bukit timah hawker centre and crapped like madd again (:

TODAY! JAN10
4I's supposed sentosa outin was a failure lolss.
the weather was super badd and it kept rainin x_X
yupps we camped at rimmel's old house in the end
lols played alot of dumb gamess . laff till pengzz (:

life is be-au-ti-ful :DDD

10:06 PM lets leave this to chance

Saturday, January 07, 2006 Y 0

LALALALA im lovin' OG27 :DDD
the week went rather smoothly (:(:
i chose my combination on thursday .
maths chemistry economics geography
BUT i doubt i got it anyway.
celine (OG27) chose the same but we're 7 classes apart >.<
yupps im posted to 06s24
anyone in the same class as me?
ughhh. next week we'll be hangin out with our new class
im so not looking forward to it.
why is it always in life we have to bid farewells when we're havin such a great time together?
BLEHSS og27 is such an amazin group
had loads of fun with them (:

we played games (qian bian riddles, double wacko, truth&dare etc) almost every break . had crazy forfeits for people . laughed at every dumb joke together . had our first (thurs) OG outing at TOWN! (:(: . know each other's secrets =PpPp . dared og mates to ask the old chang kee auntie for mee pok, ta & chaw chay teow, mai hum . laggg and chat till taka closed . had our second og outing- lunch at curry wok . played truth& dare at coronation plaza . yisong proposed to a dustbin . i called pizzahut and asked for mcdelivery's no.
and the list goess on :DDDDD


OG27 rockkin it (:


lovely gifts from our OGLs (: thanksss!

mass dance was sweet (:
there are three songs: upside down, carwash and grease.
and im already strugglin at the first.
i am such a KUKU Zzzz
i carn dance without even looking the least dumbb loll
hahs i think i'll do better singing the songs xP

lols my love for nj is growing .
its better than expected
and it certainly isn't that mugger school i thought it will be .
so yupps NJ YAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! (:(:(:

well... at least till now
i have almost nothin against the school.
maybe a little for the heavy school load that is to come in the near future
but definitely nothin about its people .
the company's great (:
im happy (:(:

but yupps
im kinda worried that i carn fit in as well in my new class x_X

9:30 PM lets leave this to chance

Tuesday, January 03, 2006 Y 0

yepps its the first day of school!
WHEEEEEEE! -.-
stalia estrellas .
thats the theme for nj orientation 2006 :DDD
okayy the day was pretty average
lots of talks and v little games .
blehsss LOL 132 rvians went into nj o_O
my group itself has 6 rvians already Zzz
yupp my OGLs are super enthu and funny (:(:
hahahas the games were fun
BUT still, 1 full week of subject talks is HELL x_X

heard ac's orientation was super funn >.<
felt a tinge of regret actually
but whatever, i made my choice and i love the people who went nj with me :DD

BLEHSS i hope the week pass quickly (:
NJ YAHHH!
we do our best we always will
to serve to strive and not to yield
NJC all the way, all the way NJC!
(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:


终极一班 - 给我你的爱 (:


等待一點一滴 你對我感到安心
感覺朋友關係 有了新的默契

便利商店裡 誰也買不到
我們最想要的東西 只握在喜歡的人手上

給我你的愛 讓我陪著你去未來
給我你的愛 手拉著手不放開
就算宇宙爆炸 海水都蒸發
只願你的記憶裡 有我的擁抱

我的最大幸福 是發現了我愛你
靈魂有了意義 用每一天珍惜

便利商店裡 誰也買不到
我們最想要的東西 只握在喜歡的人手上

給我你的愛 讓我陪著你去未來
給我你的愛 手拉著手不放開
就算宇宙爆炸 海水都蒸發
只願你的記憶裡 有我的擁抱

雨和天空也有相愛的可能
望著你的微笑 情不自禁

給我你的愛 讓我陪著你去未來
給我你的愛 手拉著手不放開
就算地球毀滅 來不及流淚
只願你的記憶裡 有我的擁抱

10:23 PM lets leave this to chance

Monday, January 02, 2006 Y 0

destiny's 4D3N 27-30 Dec 2005 havoc camp :DDD
chalet was a BLAST.
note: blast : A highly exciting or pleasurable experience or event, such as a big party.
despite being 4D3N, it was really fun (:(:

DAY 01:
played tennis and ate jacks with yf jm yl nat and yuxi in the afternoon before headin town to get bbq stuff frm li. then went on to meet the others at the chalet.
LA . bbq was on the 2nd day -.- lol. played both wink and squeeze murderer. HAHAHAHAHX ultra dee duper FUN. we were super NOISY till some dumbo complained us loll.

DAY 02:
we went SENTOSA! (:
hooho built our very own submarine sandcastle with destiny written right below it.
played volleyball and touchrugby :DDD
LOL my stamina suckked to the core. panted like madd during the whole game Zzz
we then walked from palawan beach to siloso beach.
, where we played captain's ball! (:(: HOHOHOOHO

came back to chalet for BBQ. lol we had a HUGE turkey in addition to our hotdogss and otahs and blahsss.
yummyyyyyy (:(: i foresee 2d has a couple of potential chefs in the making :D
crapped like madd with the guys near the pit. mr hao mao aka the fat TENSHI who carn fly but resembles wu yan zu according to chan yanzhi is KINGKONG! mr li2 is T-REX! mr da jian ming is LAO A-PEK! and i am the NPCC - MATA! LOL

night/! HAPPY HOUR (:
solely card gamesss .
LANJIAO CHEEBYE DAI DE .
loll super cool , super funny , super HIGH game
that leaves you begging to be the final CHEE BYE =PpPp
hahaha i managed to get happy familyy -- king, queen, commoner, lanjiao, cheebye
played a whole 4 hours from 2 to 7am
WOAHHHH ! this is even better than ****ing j/k =p

DAY 03:
*dongsss
its time for SHI ZI LU ZOU!
鸡蛋----------------〉杯杯面
hahaha we are so rockin' it (:
blehss my group was last though. LOL
yl, yj , yx and me !
its okayyy we are still the BEST ... in my heartx LOL

night01/ pool
watched the others played pool.
yupp quite interestinn bah
loll the best part was the soccer (table game?) (:
LALALALALA it was my first time playin .
i was in the red team and played the defender position .
hahas think i did a pretty good job (:
lols but i think we lost 5-4? or was it 4-3?
yupp it wass fun

night02/ red house *scaryss
10 ppl went. we walked in pairs
almost everybody heard or saw somethin
we went into the place by crawlin into a hole at the back of the house
hahass jm and hao mao saw and heard stuff o_O
they saw the most stuff bah since they were at the front leadin us .
while km and yl heard footsteps,
mark and phyllis felt the presence of it
loll i was one of the lucky few (stella, alan and yj) who managed to walk out of the house without any bad experience.
i was the most humji among the 10 =p
blehss hao mao wanna challenge the sentosa mansion and old changi hospital for the next few chalets
Zzzzz loll i think i gonna stay at home man

DAY 04: CHECK OUT! (:

hahahas really enjoyed my time with you guys :DDD
2years later, yet still the same o' crappy and guailan bunch of people i know 2years before
i<3myDESTINY(:

5:31 AM lets leave this to chance


afraid .
lose .
no .

im gonna stick to my resolutions this time rd .
goodbye 2005.
here i come 06! :DDD

yepps will be bloggin bout the last week of my dec holidays since its so HAPPY (:(:

5:06 AM lets leave this to chance