ahhhh. i fed myself with pills for three days already!
why isn t that freaking flu going away?
why is my throat still so sore?
:(
its getting worse.
how am i gonna sing a song to yin next week?
blehsss she is gonna be SO SAD! :(

i promised you a song.
and i will make good my promise.
i will try my best to deliver the right notes(:

hahahahss im being random again

Paddling for Diabetes
Sub 30 hour Round Singapore Canoeing Challenge

they broke the record.
with a record time of 29 hours and 37 minutes.
A 150 km.
with 35km on foot.

for them to be able to complete it was just magical.
and the packing up at kallang, let's just say that im glad we're training a macritche now. the heavy boats, the washing, the clearing up and the stairs, tough!
im thankful.

but overall ,the day was great!
the light refreshment and the people.

COURTESY OF BERNIE(:(:

20 august 2006
heee im too lazy to write a full entry about it.
in a nutshell, i really respect him for what he does.
he leads by example and he sticks by his principles(:
seriously, not many people have such courage these days.
AND AND AND.... PLEASE DONATE TO THE DIABETICS SOCIETY!(:
SPREAD THE LOVE!

and yesss... the company was really GREAT(:(:
cosy homely feeling!

sorry.

i let my frustration reigned today.
each time the hurtful words left my lips,
i tried putting myself in your shoes...
i thought perhaps... they will spur you on instead... unleash all that fury and so we ll put all our anger into the water
but at the end of it all, i realised what an asshole i was.

to say that those words were to motivate and encourage was a lie.
i just couldn t stand the thought of being behind.
i didn t like people to wait for us...
and because of this fear, i wanted to go faster
i became agitated when we weren t going as fast we potentially could
and desperation set in.
my emotions got the better of me... and i just snapped.
in the end, i didn t stop myself from spatting all the mean things i said.

. why am i always forcing my ideals on the people around me?
why can t i stay cool and composed in face of pressure and fear?
what the hell am i doing?

freak, you re such a disappointment.


yes, we are pushing but can we be really sure we ve pushed hard enough?
why should we even set limits on ourselves?

im a mugger. im a mugger . im a mugger.
i love my books. they love me too(:

this weekend is killing me.
ahhhss there s loads to do :((

checklist:
econs essay
econs DRQ
chemistry tutorial
study for econs test
study for maths test

at least next week is worth looking forward to(:
cca best practises, skit, colours night.

yay. bye bye, i have a date with my books
dearest econs promised to cook breakfast -.-

the clouds turned purple, the seas a lovely grey.
its ok,
im alright.
gimme take some time to breathe again.

kurt halsey is love.
i wish he hold an exhibition here.

why does this have to start all over again?
it matters hell loads how you are feeling... what you are thinking.
except that you don t tell me much, neither can i put the words in my mouth.
its real tough trying to pretend that im perfectly alright with you not giving a damn about our lives.
so what if i care?
i can t enter where you are.
it gets tiring and hurting sometimes.


tell me why i have to plaster a smile on my face that day.
today i saw black .
a voice told me i could paint my tinge of red,
and i did.

laughing happily at zombie jokes today kinda made me miss yesterday yesterday yesterday..... yesterday

yesterday when i was standing at the insaints container classroom door being sarcastic to zombie
yesterday when i was laughing like theres no tomorrow with my girls
yesterday when i carn help but go IMAO at the unique laughters of my classmates
yesterday when we would all laugh so loudly like 4 crazy bitches
yesterday when i could watch s304 ball almost every cca day
yesterday when we can write our own scripts and act our own movie within one ball game
yesterday when we trained, smiled, laughed and teared
yesterday when i was chasing fat cat down the corridor of the old campus with my water bottle, playing our usual shooting game
yesterday when destiny would rot at jec everyday
yesterday when we would gather for every ipw lesson to talk about the pornest and weirdest things in life
yesterday when i was still wearing my nerdy spectacles.

in a flash, we grew up ... mature and decent at sight, wild and rebels at heart.
today i played stupid games again.
today i laughed so hard and so loud that i found my old self again.
today i was a loud-hailer and i really couldnt give a damn(:

i finally know why im still quite happy in nj,
because almost all my fav people are here.
and i know they will be here for me(:

we all have to leave our playgrounds someday...
leave the people we love and the familiar routines we do everyday.
but yes, we will still be connected up here... <3

i miss
chiehyinyanzhiyirongsimnaserenewinnijazreelvalerielipinghuipings304
yifengchenzhuoinsaintsliliyouweiyeowlinyuanjiedestinyjoanneqianzhirv&friendszombie

loved. love. loving.
for all these memories, i cherish.

and for the future, i embrace.
team. gang. life.

and yuppps i OWE my blog MANY MANY ENTRIES from LAST WEEK(:
heavy image content coming up soon.
oh ya i love li's CURLY HAIR. kudos to you brother .
take care . you are not a fool, really.

hahahas this is random.
I LOVE MY BEST FRIEND(:(:

and to dearest rong:
ahhh i wished i was at that bus stop too:(

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

- the movie "coach carter"

i miss this movie loads.
it brings back memories(:

arghhh this is bad
i woke up at 0800 when im supposed to get up at only 10 plus?
grrrr and i carn seem to go back to sleep again.
oh mans i need my 10hours to catch up all that i lost during the week
:(
what the toot*
helps.

i don t why . . . but i m feeling very GAY today :DDD
note: gay: adj 2. full of or showing high-spirited merriment
i wanna scream to my world!

colours . rainbows . you guys paint them all(:
i m falling in <3 with my team more each day ^_^

watertrg /k1 . think we can push more... jiayous
recee /i have a nice group
flyer distribution /someone should just murder the idiot who designs the building. crap structure -.- LOL
causewaypoint lunch (:
its HAIRBAND day on MONDAY!
wear your pretty bands girls(:
hahasss we re so random . . . lalas i love.
p.s vic bought a blue hairband . goshh

ahhhh . . . mug hard canoeists,
we re gonna promote together as a team.
oh yeahs i m a full- fledged mugger.
i love my books .
they will NOT screw me,
because i willl screw them! yeahh baby

oh mans, i don t want to be retained :(

YESTERDAY
nothing beats suan-ing &laughing with e gang(:(:
ermsss the people i love since my sec one days...
glads that we re all still in touch.
hahas its perfectly all right that im still nicknamed death... ooohhh whatever.
beware i write your name in my deathnote (:
heee i love li's hair. so CURLY ! HAHAHAS
we had dinner at hk cafe at cineleisure.
oh boy, the place is heaven.
the prices are pretty cheap for a restaurant and goshh, the serving is like OHMY
absolutely value for money and an ideal place for gatherings for old people =p
lols OLD MEN i mean.

TODAY
water trg .
its really a privilege to row together
cherish (:
im not sure where that courage during our second half of resistance came from
but many images flashed and disappeared in my head,
images of you, them and us.
i knew i didn t want to let go forever ...
lock . pull . twist . kick . breathe
there s too much at stake.

there s so much bottled inside.
so many conflicting emotions. so many doubts &fears. so many joys &happiness
i just want to pen this down...
so even after twenty years later, i will remember ...
all that i do and felt in this two short years(: